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Over

My Boyfriend just dumped me. It is over… After 5 years. I love him so so much… He says that the last 18 month were more a war than a relationship. I never thought he is thinking like this.

It is so empty. I want to hate him. It would make it so much easier. But I can’t. I can’t. I want to go back in time and fix everything…

I don’t want to picture my future without him, my life. I don’t want to be without him!

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So I had insanely bad 3 weeks. When my friend from Germany was over she started realizing that I changed. Counting calories, the 200 that I eat max a day. So she started wondering… I didn’t want her to notice. She even cought me hiding my meals. So I had to start eating 1200 calories a day again. I tried to throw up. Didn’t work, I don’t know. I am to stupid or something. I just… I feel like a pig.So today I stepped on the scale, even I was afraid and I didn’t gain a pound. I am just so sad because I could have lost so much weight in 3 weeks…Now I have to get used to NOT eating… Again! I feel so strong when my body tells I need food and I just say NO!Cause I can! Want to start fasting tomorrow again… I can’t do a lot exercise right now because my lungs are congested… Stupid.My mom is visiting me next week. Hope she won’t notice… Hope.

So I had insanely bad 3 weeks. When my friend from Germany was over she started realizing that I changed. Counting calories, the 200 that I eat max a day. So she started wondering… I didn’t want her to notice. She even cought me hiding my meals. So I had to start eating 1200 calories a day again. I tried to throw up. Didn’t work, I don’t know. I am to stupid or something. I just… I feel like a pig.
So today I stepped on the scale, even I was afraid and I didn’t gain a pound. I am just so sad because I could have lost so much weight in 3 weeks…

Now I have to get used to NOT eating… Again! I feel so strong when my body tells I need food and I just say NO!
Cause I can!

Want to start fasting tomorrow again… I can’t do a lot exercise right now because my lungs are congested… Stupid.

My mom is visiting me next week. Hope she won’t notice… Hope.

(Source: show-me-ya-dick, via skip-dinner-end-up-thinner)

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Fasting

I am counting…

First time I do this. Last time something solid passed my lips was yesterday 8 pm

I hope I can stay strong!

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